1 week left!!! AHHHH!!!!

1 week left before my big trip over the Pacific!! CRAZY!! I can't believe it-it's insanely surreal. I'm packed with all my belongings in 3 footlockers.. egads! I mean, it's really scary to think about how all the clothes and things I will have from home for the next year are enclosed in these things. FrEaKy! (esp. considering how I'm a clothes hoarder.. lol) I've pretty much had a month long panic attack about leaving.. everything I did I kept thinking "this is prolly the last time I'll get to do this" :( This panicky anxiousness has pretty much subsided at this point and has made way for immediate nervousness.. I don't think I'm insanely nervous right now just b.c. I've been keeping myself really busy since I'm queen procrastinator and have a million zillion things to do before I leave in 6 days! AHHH!!!

Anyways.. I know that things will be great, I know I'll have the time of my life, I know I'll never 4get the amazing experiences I will have- but still- it's insane! I still can't believe this humongous change in my life and I know that in 6 days it will def. be hitting home. I'll just hafta see what awaits me... :)

Work visa at last= nervousness...

So... I FINALLY got my work visa today from the Korean Consulate!!! YAY!!! After months of craziness trying to get this special thing, I have it and really can't believe it.. So- now I'm DEFINITELY going, no doubt.. no pulling out or pulling back or anything- In exactly one month from today- I'm there!! Egads! My nervousness has been ever-increasing and my insanity about Korea is arising and staying ever present. To be real honest= I'm getting pretty nervous and anxious about going.. almost to the point where I'm like "I don't want to go anymore"- like I'm getting sad and with everything I do now it's like "this might be the last time I do this for a few years" which makes me even sadder ... but I know that I really do still wanna go-- it's just my nerves talking. I know that the nerves will go away but not until I get there so the fact that they've already started and continue to increase in severity is really annoying b.c. I have a month left of this increasingly painful feeling in my gut. blech. oh well- I'm excited, nervous, anxious- every possible adjective you can think of but I know it'll all be worth it and I'll have an amazing time. (at least that's what everyone keeps telling me and what I keep telling myself.)